It's hard to imagine how Dr. Shmuel Yurfest feels. He is a skilled surgeon who has treated many Arab patients including one member of Islamic Jihad who blew his hand off while playing with explosives.
In May, 2003, though his world changed as he describes:
"As I was doing that, a girl wearing a simple dress passed me. I remember the back of her neck. It was covered with sweat...I never saw her face," Yurfest recalled.
"I was standing shoulder-to-shoulder next to her while another security guard scanned her with a metal detector. Suddenly the metal-detector started beeping and beeping.
"At the same time I was told I could go. I put my keys in my pocket. I heard more and more beeps from the metal detector scanning the girl. Then just as I was about to walk off there was an enormous explosion," Yurfest said.
Yurfest has had six months to replay the incident in his mind and the year that preceded it in which he saved the life of a suicide bomber wounded when his explosives detonated prematurely and reattached the hand of a bomb-maker who only hours earlier had helped kill 13 Israeli soldiers.
"I remember commenting to one of the nurses during the surgery (on the bomb-maker), 'Tell the terrorists, when they make a bomb for me to make sure it's a small one because I have saved the lives of many of them'," Yurfest said.
"But I never for a moment thought it would come true."